What next?

Well I just received a call from my doctor.....It seems I am falling apart and the diabetes is starting to gain momentum. Why can't I lose weight...well I guess the question should be ..why don't I try to lose weight? It's not like I didn't know that it would come to this. I am only 56 years old and now on top of it she is talking like I might have some blood condition that is causing the iron to be to high in my liver. Now she wants me to go get an ultra sound and see a blood specialist! On top of that I have protein showing in my kidneys..Not good!

If I would just lose the weight I could increase my lung capacity, and get off of all these crazy meds I am on. Why is it so hard for me to say no to sweets and carbs when I know that they are slowly killing me? I have my kids and my grandsons to look forward to, I thought for years but if I keep going this route it won't happen.

You know..my world is full of cyber friends..I love everyone of them, but there is not one person here in Springfield who would be considered a friend. Why is that? I'm the same here as I am online.. I just wish I had someone to be here to stand beside me and encourage me and help me through this.