I feel Yucky!

Last night I was queasy all night..tossed and turned..didn't want to barf but probably should have just to get to feeling better. I went to my client's this morning to take him to the Special Olympics bowling only to find out they cancelled it due to weather. So I came home to lay down. We got a lot of freezing rain last night and are supposed to get 4-6 inches of snow today. We'll see..It always seems to hit just north of us.

Anyone else suffer from lack of sunshine? I really need to see the sun!!

What next?

Well I just received a call from my doctor.....It seems I am falling apart and the diabetes is starting to gain momentum. Why can't I lose weight...well I guess the question should be ..why don't I try to lose weight? It's not like I didn't know that it would come to this. I am only 56 years old and now on top of it she is talking like I might have some blood condition that is causing the iron to be to high in my liver. Now she wants me to go get an ultra sound and see a blood specialist! On top of that I have protein showing in my kidneys..Not good!

If I would just lose the weight I could increase my lung capacity, and get off of all these crazy meds I am on. Why is it so hard for me to say no to sweets and carbs when I know that they are slowly killing me? I have my kids and my grandsons to look forward to, I thought for years but if I keep going this route it won't happen.

You know..my world is full of cyber friends..I love everyone of them, but there is not one person here in Springfield who would be considered a friend. Why is that? I'm the same here as I am online.. I just wish I had someone to be here to stand beside me and encourage me and help me through this.

Cincinnati Reds

My latest layout..Cincinnati Reds...This is actually Nolan's second game but since I have not been blessed with the photos from the first one, I decided to go ahead and do these. What prompted the layout is the very cute title with the tear bears, made by my friend Esther. She is the tear bear queen! I have a small stack of different bears that she has made that I have either bought, received in a swap or was gifted and I decided it was time to start getting them on a layout. You can see many of Esther's creations at http://estherscreativedesigns.blogspot.com/ She is listing them almost daily on her blog and the neat thing is you can pick your color bear down to the eye color. I will be posting more soon as I complete my other layouts.

I am trying really hard to stay with this blog. It is something new for me. I finally figured out how to add the blogs that I follow! LOL..Eventually I would like to add a slide show and get some music on here as well as get some fancy background and heading...but it will come.

I am in a group where the monthly color challenge is ORANGE and I have already completed 2 double layouts but I found a lot of Halloween pics spanning several years for Annie and my grandsons that I am going to go ahead and get finished to add to the challenge.

So I am off to match up papers and get the kits together so all I have to do is sit down and get busy...

Happy New Year!!

I don't usually make resolutions because they are so difficult to keep. I do want to make a few this year tho. I want to try my best to keep up with this blog and make it something fun to read and visit. I want to scrap more. I don't want to break any records but I would like to do more than I have been able to. I would like to get my house cleaned up and make it a home to be proud of. I want to get myself regular to church and to pay my tithe. I think those should keep me busy, don't you?

I actually got three layouts completed today. A two page with Nolan and I making cookies. That was fun. I also did a single layout of my trip to Troy, Oh to see Sarah Palin during that mess of a presidential race. It was very exciting for me. Tracy Lawrence was the surprize celebrity guest. Annie took a friend and Katie and Eli hooked up with us there. Very memorable!

HIVES!!!

I HATE THEM!!! I have had hives for nearly two weeks now. Not fun! They started when one of my clients was actively dying. I began to get concerned that I would not be able to move him due to his weight and my lifting limits. I didn't have to face that issue because he became comatose and we just did everything we could to keep him comfortable and clean.

His kids became angry with each other and I had to stay in that atmosphere because I was the caregiver. Not a fun place to be. He passed on Nov 24 two days before Thanksgiving. So that meant that I had to buy my groceries and cook for Thanksgiving and attend the funeral the next day. I also took on ordering the flowers for all the caregivers and almost missed the deadline! That would have been a disaster. As it was , I had to practically beg for my money from three of the girls. Now why would they agree to flowers and then not want to pay me?

Thanksgiving was good but by that time I was already broken out. I went to my client's home to help with the food and then came home exhausted. Now I have to deal with finding clients who will fill the 18 hours a week I am losing because of Roe's death. The fact is..I DON'T WANT to find a client. I would love nothing more than to stay here at home and clean this place up.

I also had three kittens that I could not find a home for. We tried all the shelters, put a sign in the yard, posted them on Craig's list and no one seemed to want them. Cute little buggers! So we had to keep them in my half bathroom because the dogs wanted to eat them. Every time you opened the door they wanted to run out and the chase began. Well, Kate and Annie found a farm to take them to so that is one more worry off of my mind. And I got my bathroom clean and sanatized!!

I ended up in ER getting two shots that helped me temporarily. The hives came back. SO I got two prescriptions that help but do nothing to get rid of them for good so I am off to the doctor today to see what can be done. I know that I have slept quite a bit but they are still here.

Christmas is just around the corner and most of my shopping is completed. I need to get my tree up but that is another story in it's self. I will accomplish it I know but for now I need to get to work. I have a client waiting. Have a great day!

OMGosh!

Well, I had no clue it has been since July that I had written in my blog! So much has happened, to much to try to recapture so I won't do that but I AM going to try to be true to this blog. Of course no one reads it anyway but it will help me keep my thoughts from escaping and being lost.

Maybe I should make it a New Year's Resolution....Only this time try hard to keep it!

God's Creations

I used to hate it when my Mom would constantly talk about nature and clouds and that kind of stuff but as I get to be the age my Mom was when she was so in tune with those things, I find that I am getting to be just like her!

When I am having a particularly hard day I find that God sends me an animal to enjoy or the clouds are incredible and I realize that HE loves me. This week alone I have been so blessed.

On Monday I was heading back to the house to get my glasses at 8:30 in the morning and a beautiful doe walked across the road in front of my car! She was so gorgeous and graceful. What a treat for that time of day. Usually they are seen at dusk. Two days later I was once again heading home and a spotted fawn came out of the cornfield buy itself. I was stunned to see it alone and wondered if it's mom had gotten hit by a car but I didn't see any deer laying by the road. As I passed it I looked in the rear view mirror and saw another fawn jump out from the cornfield..I turned my car around and hollered from the window to scare them back into the field because I was sure one or both would get hit. Yet another treat for this weary soul! I can't tell you the last time I saw a spotted fawn.

In the same week I was driving to my client's home and a red fox ran out in front of me and started running down the road in front of my car! It seemed like a long time before it finally turned and heading into the field. A red fox!!! I was so excited because you don't see them often at all.

Then as I was getting ready to leave my client's house on Friday, I started to my car and something jumped in front of me and startled me. The motion light came on and it was a huge toad! I think it lives in the flower bed because in the beginning of the season I was weeding the bed and moved a rock. When I did the earth moved and it startled me. I was thinking ..snake!! But it was the toad! It is amazing how the color of the toad and the color of the soil match.

My client lives in an old stone farm house and they added a room with loads of windows. Outside of that room is an old staircase make of huge stone slabs leading up to a set of patio doors. We watched as a chipmunk climbed those stairs and played on them and then shortly there after a baby bunny ran through the yard. I'm telling you it is wonderful there! I so enjoy seeing all of those animals running and playing.

Just outside the room are three bird feeders, two finch feeders and a hummingbird feeder. I have watched Mourning Doves, Red Winged Blackbirds, Canary and Barn Finches, along with the sparrows and other birds feed and bathe in the bird bath.

The farmhouse sits way back in off the road. You would never know it was there. It's like a little slice of heaven!

I thank God everytime I get to see one of His creatures. They sure bring me peace and pleasure in a very high paced time of my life. It's great to slow down and enjoy!